I'd like to mention that today would've been Nannie's 88th Birthday. I know she is in a way better place right now...but I still miss her everyday. I miss having that person in my life that I turn to for EVERYTHING good and bad. She was my best friend and my prayer warrior. She also drove me nuts, as she did everyone...but when she was driving me nuts I knew it was b/c she wanted to spend time with me and she loved me. I can not describe to anyone how much she meant to me, and there are so many moments and secrets that we shared that I will treasure the rest of my life. I was so blessed to have her and to spend all the time with her that I did. I loved hearing her stories and learning about my family, and I also loved the times when I was sad or angry or worried that she just sat and listened and sometimes held and rocked me. She prayed me through my ups and downs of teenage life, through a few major heartbreaks, and through every test I took in college. She was my biggest fan and knew me better then anyone. I still feel that Nannie is the only person that has ever, and probably will ever, understand me 100%. She was not only my Grandmother...she was my confidant and truly my best friend. Everyday there is something that makes me think of her. I still live life thinking..."what would Nannie say or think or do about this" When I was picking my wedding gown my Mother said how beautiful it was. I said yeah it is really pretty...but would Nannie have loved it? I was so blessed to be so close to her and I miss her. I know she is watching over us (and probably arranging things to go her way with a chuckle and a grin) and keeping us safe. (Note: unfortunately I don't have any pics of her on my computer other than a scan from a photo album...need to scan more pics!!)
Today is also Gizmo's Birthday. She is my beloved cat and other best friend who is turning 15 (in human years) today. That cat has also been there for me through it all. Good and bad. I realize that not everyone feels the way I do about their animals. But I love animals and mine have always been treated as part of the family. Giz and I have been through so much together and moved around and even gone to college together. She is there when I study and read, never leaves my side when I'm sick and has been there many times just to listen when I need to talk to someone. Never does she interrupt or tell you your feelings are not important. She just sits there purring and looking you straight in the eye while you get it all out. She cuddles with me and makes me laugh quite often. Even at 15 she goes CRAZY for some yarn with a feather on the end. She HATES when I cry and just somehow knows when I need companionship. You always know when Giz wants attention. She gets in your face and hits you w/ her paw until she gets it. When she wants in a room she knows how to bang the door around until you let her in. She is truly a very intelligent cat. It is amazing and has often been remarked on by myself and other family members...how many personality traits she shares with Nannie...I'm sure it has something to do with their Birthday being the same. They both are stubborn and just exude this sense of entitlement. They both are caring and sweet and there when you need them. Like Nannie, Gizmo certainly gets her way and let's everyone know when she's had enough. (Poor little puppy Fionn doesn't get away with anything when Gizmo is around) I love Gizmo very much and she has been a major part of our family now for 15 years. Hopefully I have many more years with my best friend and snuggle buddy. Can't imagine not having her around to bring me kisses and love.
This blog entry has been a good sense of venting for me. I thank anyone who reads it for allowing me to ramble on. Today is a day to cherish these two blessings in my life. So...Happy Birthday Nannie and Gizmo...I love you both!!
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